i have done a thing
and i have uploaded it
i wonder if i can squeeze out another?
The little thingsthere are this little things that remind me of youThe little things by dreamsborninfire
that no longer excites me
they do not bring with them the fond memories of times past,
(instead) they fill me with crippling anxiety and a fear i can’t explain
those little reminders
that go off at random inside my head
they’re like a bombs being dropped
waiting to catch me off my guard
i can’t escape the “what could’ve done’s” “would’ve done’s” and “should’ve done’s”
it’s all making me sick
I try and move on
(oh Lord knows i try)
but this little things
they keep reminding me of you
those sweet memories, the times shared,
used to feel me with joy unspeakable
now i’m filled with bitterness i’ve never known
a hate that i can’t explain
I no longer get excited over the little things
they remind me too much of you
…I’m finally moving on
time wastedWould it have made a difference if I paid more attention to you ? ( though I rarely saw you…)time wasted by dreamsborninfire
If I complemented you more?
If I told you that you meant everything to me?
That I knew things were rough but it was gonna be OK?
How could’ve I have know
That you were hurt this badly
That it ran that deep
How could’ve I have known anything
Of what you were going through?
I’m just as guilty as you
We never truly spoke
And we found out that wasn’t best way to communicate
not until it was to late
But then I remembered…
You went to someone else for help , you confided in them
And left ME in the dark
the one you said you loved...
Leaving me to wonder why you would go to her and not me( I was your girlfriend)
I knew me not having a car was hard, believe me, it wasn’t just hard on you.
Was I truly that bad of a person that you couldn’t tell me how hurt you were?
We were barely together
At first I didn’t mind
I still get excitedi still get excited about thingsI still get excited by dreamsborninfire
that remind me of you
--- would love that
or i wonder if --- knows about that
but then i remember
you took me for granted
thinking I would be ok
being left in the dark
what am i left with?
feelings of abandonment and betrayal
insecurities on the rise
questions left unsaid/answered
me envisioning a future with you
this is the worst
i put so much trust in you
(I let you see me) you saw me at my most venerable
and what did you do?
and what did you do??
you threw it all away like it was nothing
like i was nothing
treated(used) me like tissues
you balled me up and threw me away
i see things that remind me of you
and i wonder
have you seen this too?
but then i remember
you never loved me like i did you