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Would it have made a difference if I paid more attention to you ? ( though I rarely saw you…)
If I complemented you more?
If I told you that you meant everything to me?
That I knew things were rough but it was gonna be OK?

But wait
How could’ve I have know
That  you were hurt this badly
That it ran that deep

How could’ve I have known anything
Of what you were going through?
I’m just as guilty as you
We never truly spoke
we texted
And we found out that wasn’t best way to communicate
not until it was to late  

But then I remembered…
You went to someone else for help , you confided in them
And left ME in the dark
the one you said you loved...
Leaving me to wonder why you would go to her and not me( I was your girlfriend)
I knew me not having a car was hard, believe me, it wasn’t just hard on you.

Was I truly that bad of a person that you couldn’t tell me how hurt you were?


We were barely together
At first I didn’t mind
But then I wanted what out couples had
Fun
Adventure
Excitement
But that only came through sex...

DO YOU HOW MESSED UP THAT IS??? YOU RATHER SPENDING TIME WITH FRIENDS WHILE I SIT AT HOME, BORED OUT OF MIND
WISHING I WAS WITH YOU??
DO YOU KNOW HOW MESSED UP IT IS WHEN YOU GO TO ANOTHER GIRL FOR HELP(FRIEND OR NOT!) AND YOU COME TO ME…JUST FOR SEX…???
Are you aware of that? how messed up that is????

you go to other people for help, but not your (ex) girlfriend?

do you know how that makes me feel? like i mean nothing to you
like i didn't matter to you
i was just another body


We are both hurt
We were both blind
we were both wasting each others time

But sweetheart
All I wanted was to be your number one and a little bit more of yer time

a whole summer went by and i only saw you twice

said i could have had my mum or dad drop me off, but you wouldn’t have it ( they wouldn't have minded. else they would've said no)

asked to stop by, and you said no

my mum told me to stop begging...
i shouldn’t have to beg my own boyfriend to see if i could see him or not...


I wanted to be the one to cheer you up,
I wanted to be one you came too when you were down
2 years
Wasted
And on what?

The fact that you didn’t tell me that you'd rather spend time with  your ex (your so called friend )  then with me
Did you think I was stupid? I notice how your face lit up when you talked about her
Nothing but smiles
Always texting her when your with me
face aglow like your phone screen
And you saw nothing wrong with that??? You thought it was ok...
she was right in saying she should’ve backed off…

but..
You didn’t want to let her go… You found fault in my way of thinking
why didn’t you come to me first? why was i always last on your list?

you were even texting her when we were arguing (via text) and again the next day!!

All I wanted was to be your number one
I just wanted your eyes to shine the way they did when you talked with your ex
I just wanted  your  attention(affection)

But no
you didn’t or you refused to understand what i was trying to say

No girl wants to to hear excuses…
cause she was close? Cause she was free? And what was I ?
You act like I wasn’t available
You act like I’m not home, waiting for you to get off work…
You made no effort
None…

You wanted to  break up
Since when though? I forgot to ask
You weren’t even sorry you hurt me
You weren’t even sorry you used me



i should've seen the signs
but i didn't
not until it was to late
you
didn't touch me like you used to
you didn't tease me
you mumbled  your " I love yous"
you texted her more then you did me...



I really do  love you
I Would have done anything  for you
Remember that.
… but it’s pointless now


Thank you for wasting my time
this is a WIP. I'm still adding and deleting lines 

communication in any relationship is key 
you should always talk things out if you have a significant other, or a very close friend 
you should not go to yer ex-girlfriend if yer in a relationship (unless that person knew  about them when they first started dating  and were cool with it then whatever, but that wasn't so in my case. i never heard of her.) 
its disrespectful 
talk it out with person yer dating 

other wise 
you leave room for doubt and paranoia to grow

also don't waste each others time

time wasted is time gone
and you can't get that back
and i don't think he understood that 

oh well 
enough with that
i'm done
imma eat now 
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